Chest Pain and ER visit...

So with all the stress I have been enduring I have also been having some chest pain...It started Sunday afternoon and I chalked it up to the stress...I didn't want to go to the Dr and just have them tell me your fine and get sent home so I thought I'd tough it out...By Thursday it was worse and my whole body was starting to hurt...So I called my Dr to see if they could get me in for a check up...Because of my family heart history I was sent straight to Sacred Heart ER...My dad drove me down there because they told me it wasn't safe to drive myself...My dad HATES hospitals but he was very willing to come sit with me while I under went all the tests and pokes...2 EKGs...Blood work...Drinking nasty stuff...Lots of IV drugs...And an amazing pain killer that made me feel great as long as I didn't move...All my heart tests came back fine so they are sure its my stomach...My chest cavity is inflamed so I'm now on a steroid and I'm taking a scrip for my reflux...I will be checked for a hiatal hernia soon....When I got discharged I got really sick...I puked my guts out on the way home and again when i got home...Then I laid down in bed and slept for a few hours...2 days later I'm still feeling a little woozy and having pain...Hoping to get into my Dr this week and get some relief...

Super Stress...

I'm starting to feel a very heavy load building on my shoulders...

Skyler has been pushing his limits and struggling with anger, depression, and so many other emotions...Jeff and I are not sure how to help him and have completely run out of ideas...We have decided that he needs to see a counselor before it becomes something bigger...I am feeling extremely overwhelmed with this right now...We had a 2 hr appointment with Spokane Mental Health today and they are sure he qualifies for services...

ok breath...I keep telling my self this...but my chest feels heavy...

Lets pile a little more on my load, it isn't heavy enough...

Last year we found out that Ashlynn was really struggling with reading...She was tested at a year and a half behind...We (as in Ashlynn and I) worked out tails off studding and working extra hard so she could catch up enough to pass 2nd grade...Our work paid off and she was moved on to 3rd grade...She started 3rd grade at a beginning 2nd grade reading level...This qualified her to get 21 hrs of reading tutoring from Sylvan Learning Center...She thrived and made so many gains in the Sylvan program...But we are now learning that she is not making progress in the right areas...Letters and numbers are still being formed backwards, Hand writing is still extremal hard to read, Spelling is almost un readable...I have been pushing for 2 years to have her tested and finally they are listening...She may have to be in Special Education Classes to get extra help...She works so hard...It kills me to see her struggle so much with simple reading...There are days she comes home from school and all she does is work on school work and read...

There are days I want to just stay in my bed and not deal with it...Honestly that is most days...But I cant...I'm forced to get up and be a wife and mother...I feel like I'm drowning some days...There is so much going on...I have a feeling we are in for a long summer of tutoring and appointments and a million other things besides fun...I know its a ways of but I'm dreading it...

SUPER STRESS...it hurts...

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to me today...32...Things I want to do this year...Get closer to my kids...Get closer to Jeff...Read a book...Go somewhere I've never been...Take 10,000 pictures...Loose weight...Eat healthier...Scrapbook with pictures...Go to a concert...Stay in touch with friends better...Buy a French Horn...Start playing the French Horn again...Learn something new...Crochet dresses for the hospital...Go camping a lot...Take time for myself...and I'm sure a million other things...

Picture at the top if of the kids and I at the Pacific Science Center in Seattle...

Seattle Trip...

Well we made it there and back...Despite all the snow that dumped during the night before we were to leave...The trip over was slow at first but after Ritzville it was mostly smooth going...I drove the whole way over because Jeff had just gotten off work...Our first stop on the trip was the Lego Store...The kids each filled a bucket with the legos of their choice...Then we headed to out hotel and just chilled for the evening...We were all in bed by 7:30 to get ready for the busy weekend to come...Friday morning we got up and headed to the Space Needle...It was cold outside and the wind was blowing...We got to the Space Needle a half hour before they opened so we waited in the cold...The kids were very excited to go to the top...The view from the top was amazing...The sky was blue and the sun was shining...After the Space needle we headed to the EMP...The kids really enjoyed playing all the instruments and Seeing the BSG ships...We also got to make a music video as a family...We called our selves the "Pixler Punx"...Then we walked over to the McDonalds only to discover that Ash had set out bag of Souvenirs down at the EMP...Jeff ran back over there to see if they were still there but he was too late...They were gone...This kinda put a damper on things for a bit but I reminded everyone that we needed to just enjoy the trip and not worry about it...Ashlynn felt really bad all day...After we ate lunch we headed to the Pacific Science Center...The kids really enjoyed this...We went to an IMAX movie and bought some Astronaut Ice Cream...The kids really liked the Butterfly House, Dinosaurs, and the Tide pool Touch Tanks...Then we headed down to Ye Olde Cureiosity Shop so the kids could see the "Mummy"...They loved it...Xander kept asking if it was dead...Then we decided it was time for dinner...We thought about going to Hard Rock Cafe but being a Friday night there was no way we would get in with out a really long wait so we headed back towards out hotel...We ended up at an Ihop witch was perfect...When we got back to the hotel we all crashed...Saturday morning we woke up to it snowing...We decided to go to the zoo anyways...We bundled up in out winter coats, hats and gloves and enjoyed the zoo for hours...The kids decided that they wanted to spend more time at the zoo rather than go on the cruise so we ate lunch at the Rainforest Plaza in the zoo and continued our adventure...We saw Snow leopards fighting, heard the Lion roar and saw the Bears sleeping and so much more...After the zoo we went to the Aquarium...There were a lot of people there so it was kinda hard to get around...We did get to see the giant octopus and that made Skyler happy...We spent about an hour and a half there and the left...We had a little time to kill before dinner so we took the kids to Pikes Place...They loved seeing all the people and different shops...We stopped and listened to a man playing a saw and the kids loved it...Then we got back into the car and headed out to Alki Beach...The wind was blowing and it was so cold we only stayed a few min...Posed for a few pics and got back into the van...For dinner we went to Rainforest Cafe...What a fun restaurant...The kids really loved meeting Cha Cha the Frog...Then back to the hotel...The kids fell asleep fast and Jeff and I packed all our stuff up...Sunday morning we packed up the van and headed home...The roads were better heading home so we made really good time...Now its time for a vacation from our vacation :)