So here it goes...I am so stressed out these past few months...With Jeff out of town i feel like I have a huge weight on my shoulders...It started with the move...I thought once we were in a bigger place with a yard that things would be easier for me this summer...Boy was I wrong...Now i have to worry about if the kids are destroying a yard that isn't ours...getting into things they shouldn't play with...and starting fights with the neighbor kids...I feel like they are always in trouble...I feel like I'm yelling all the time...I feel like a bad mom...I had plans to take them all these fun places this summer but the truth is I can't take all 4 of them anywhere without getting to stressed out...I have been sick to my stomach all summer knowing Jeff wont be here and that I'm am playing single parent...I wasn't cut out to be a single parent and I admire those people who do such a great job with it...ON top of this all Skyler is going through some crazy stuff right now...I have tried everything I can think of to deal with him but nothing is working...I am always after him for something and he is out of control...I just don't know what to do anymore...He is going into the doctor in a few weeks for a full physical to make sure everything is OK and to see if there is anything we can do to help him out...I'm tired of yelling and yelling and yelling...I want to take my kiddos fun places and have a good time...Maybe I need help...I love them so much and I love to see them happy and it is killing me to see them so sad this summer...Today they were good most of the day so we went to the park with some friends...It was so nice to just let them play and relax...on the way there i kept thinking what am i doing this is going to be a disaster....but in the end they all behaved and didn't even throw a fit when we left...
OK i know this was long and just something i needed to get off my chest..so thanks for listening...my goal this week is to have fun with my kids and not yell...OK now that everyone knows i have to stick to it..hold me accountable...ask me how i did...
Here are a few pics from our evening at the park...
Sky, Ash, and Hayden playing in the water...

Xander wasn't really sure of the water so he mostly played in the grass...

Ashlynn said the water was colder under the bucket...

Skyler loved sitting on the water while it was coming up...

Hayden just loves to run and run...He was so cold from being wet, but he didn't want to get out of the water...his little lips were blue...